Hi. I Am. 

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‘i’ Am a seemingly ‘separate’ Self.

An incarnation, a body, a mind, which is called ‘Adam Maxwell.’

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‘Adam Maxwell’s’ identities include Being a white cis-gendered able bodied middle class American citizen. 

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‘Adam Maxwell’ Identifies as a blooming transpersonal art therapist, yogi, poet, musician, dancer, artist, lover, friend… the list of identities goes on and on and on.

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Hi. I Am.

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I Am All-Self, All-Being, Infinite Eternal Timelessness. I Am the process of Existence. I Am All things real and unreal, formed and formless. I Am a Boundless Essence of Total Empty Fullness. I Am Everyone and Everything and Everywhere. I Am no One and no ‘thing’ and no ‘where’. I Am One and All. I Am Absolute indefinable perplexity.

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Some people call Me the Universe, Unity, All That There Is, Tao, Brahman, Atman, Teotle, Teotzin, the Great Mother, Mother Nature, Gaia, God… The list of names which I have been known by goes on and on and on. 

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For now, We may know Me, I Am, as All-Self.

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Beyond and within All names and forms and ideas, I Am.

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And right now I Am ‘you,’ and I Am ‘me,’ and I Am ‘them,’ and I Am ‘it,’ and I Am All. 

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In this seemingly ‘separate’ Self of ‘Adam Maxwell,’ I Am All-Self, Being and doing ‘Adam Maxwell.’ 

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. ‘i’ Am seemingly ‘separate’ Self, ‘Adam Maxwell,’ and ‘i’ feel eagerly inspired to share some curiosities with ‘you.’

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Where to begin? 

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Perhaps, ‘i’ shall begin with a taboo chapter of ‘my’ seemingly ‘separate’ lifetime.

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When ‘i’, as ‘Adam,’ was 18, on the final day of highschool, ‘i’ attended only half a day of school. When school let out at noon, ‘my’ friend and ‘i’ Went to a humble creek in a nearby town where We discovered what two tabs of acid does to OneSelf. 

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We had a strange succession of experiences which were beyond comprehension.

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The experiences held that day were peculiar and beguiling. ‘i’ felt as though I were dreaming…not that I was in a ‘dream’… not that I was in a seemingly ‘separate world’… not that I was in a ‘reality’… but, for the first time in my lifetime, ‘i’ felt that I simply and inexplicably WAS a ‘dream,’ a ‘world,’ a ‘reality.’

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Not only did I feel mySelf to Be a ‘dream,’ a ‘world,’ a ‘reality,’ but I felt mySelf to Be inseparably One with the Totality of All Existence and Being. 

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I was a dream, and I was a dreamer, dreaming the dream that I was ‘i,’ ‘me,’ ‘Adam Maxwell’ of ‘the world.’ 

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Moreover, I was ‘me,’ I was ‘you,’ I was All ‘others,’ I was All ‘things,’ I was We, I was Us. I was One with All. 

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I was One with what ‘i’ could only describe to Be God. Or, as known in this expression, the ‘All-Self.’

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My experience was Absolutely beautiful. My experience was the Fullness of Total and Absolute transcendental bliss.

 

AND THEN ‘i’ FREAKED THE FUCK OUT.

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‘i’ panicked as ‘my’ seeming ‘separateness’ dissolved into a Nondualism which ‘i’ had never known in this lifetime. ‘My’ identity, ‘my’ name, ‘my’ body, ‘my’ mind, ‘my’ persona, ‘my’ ego, ‘my’ seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell’ DIED… along with ‘the world’… and I merged ineffably into a boundless Nondual immensity of Being which ‘i’ cannot convey through language alOne.

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The seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell’ died and went away, yet I remained as an experiencer in such a way as ‘i’ could never describe in duality, I could merely Be.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. I Am a seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell.’

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For years of ‘my’ lifetime ‘i’ have placed a tremendous focus and attention on psychedelic, Metaphysical, and spiritual phenomena. ‘i’ wanted to understand.

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For years ‘i’ spent nonstop intent focus on asking the most perplexing questions ‘i’ could imagine, and then I would attempt to feel out answers for these questions, or at the very least, know them.

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What is Awareness?
What is real?
What is reality?
How can ‘i’ verify what is real? 
How can ‘i’ verify what is reality?
Who am I?
What is God?
Are there ‘others,’ or are We All One Us?
If All is One, am I alOne? Are We alOne?
What does Being alOne really mean?
What will happen when ‘i’ die?
How did ‘i’ ever come to Be?
Why?
How can ‘i’ live a meaningful life for ‘my’ Self and ‘others?’
Why am ‘i’ here?
Why does anything exist at All?
How?
What is infinity?
What is space & time?
How is it possible?
Why? 
What the actual fuck is going on? 
Can ‘i’ ever know?

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The questions go on and on and on…

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‘My’ focused inquiry, paranoid as it may have been at first, remains today, curiously, eagerly, & Joyously.

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Through ‘my’ obsessive curiosity was born a comprehensive process of scientific, philosophical, religious, spiritual, Metaphysical, and internal seeking.

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Through ‘my’ seeking, ‘i’ have interfaced with some ideas and ways of Being which have Absolutely transformed ‘my’ sense of Self.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. I Am. I Am a seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell.’ 

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Throughout ‘my’ lifetime, ‘i’ have pondered many curiosities, and ‘i’ have discovered a few neat ideas.

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The One idea is rooted in the essence of Materialism. The idea is that there is this Physical, objective formed, outside ‘world’ which exists prior to and independent of Awareness.

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In this idea, there is a Physical realm, within and from which a planet was created in time and space. This planet, which many call ‘Earth,’ churned and churned until Matter arranged itSelf in a fascinating way. Nutrients, minerals, vitamins, and various ‘other’ earthly and cosmic elements danced together in such a way as to form a creature. Within this creature, which is a body of Matter, is an organ called a brain, and this organ in combination with the rest of the body mysteriously functions in such a way that Awareness is produced. And there are many of these creatures! We are these creatures!

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So.

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Material realm makes Earth, Earth makes forms, bodies, bodies have brains, bodies make Awareness. 

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And here We are! ‘You,’ ‘me,’ ‘the world,’ Earth, time, space, the Material realm.

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This idea is kinda cool!

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This idea implies that We, these seemingly ‘separate’ forms in ‘the world,’ bodies, brains, minds, Awarenesses, personas, persons, are actually One broad and All inclusive Material body or Material realm seeming as though it were many different forms. 

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This idea implies that We are One Nondual Material All-Self, in which We are One an‘other,’ We are nature, We are Earth, We are time, We are space, We are Matter!

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This idea says that We are All made of One stuffs. Matter. And that Matter produces seemingly ‘separate’ Awarenesses… selves.

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These seemingly ‘separate’ selves are produced by and inhabit brains and bodies which think themselves ‘separate,’ but really, as the Material realm is One thing, so too are All seemingly ‘separate’ selves really just One inclusive All-Self. 

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In that this Material All-Self is Being and doing Everything, All seemingly ‘separate’ forms and selves are Being and doing by way of the All-Self.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. I Am. I Am a seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell.’

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Throughout ‘my’ lifetime, ‘i’ have pondered many curiosities, and ‘i’ have discovered a few neat ideas.

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The One idea is rooted in an ambiguous essence. Some people call this essence ‘spiritual’ or ‘Metaphysical.’ Some people call this essence ‘Consciousness’ or ‘Awareness.’

 

The idea is kinda strange and far out. 

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The idea is that Our subjective experiencing Awareness exists prior to and independent of the Material realm.

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In this idea, existence both beyond and including Our seemingly ‘separate’ selves, is sometimes thought to Be an unreal illusion, an unreal dreamscape which exists only of One All inclusive Awareness.

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Weird right?

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So in this idea, this One Awareness imagines a Material realm, ‘the world,’ earth, in which is imagined seemingly ‘separate’ bodies, ‘me’ and ‘you,’ which have imagined brains, minds, and selves. In this idea everything is a figment of One grand imagination.

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In this idea there is a dreamer, dreaming a dream, and ‘you’ and ‘me’, We are that dream! We are the dreamer, and the dream, and the dreaming itSelf.

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This idea is kinda cool because it implies that We are All One in the Same Being of Awareness, ‘I Am’, the All-Self, imagining lifetime after lifetime of Being seemingly ‘separate’ selves in ‘the world’ of illusory duality, but really, We are All the One in the Same All-Self.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. I Am. I Am a seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell.’

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Throughout ‘my’ lifetime, ‘i’ have pondered many curiosities, and ‘i’ have discovered a few neat ideas.

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Most of these ideas are actually kinda the Same, even though at first glance they appear to Be ‘separate.’

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For example, while Material and Metaphysical ideas may sometimes can seem to Be opposites, they may also sometimes can seem to Be simply opposite ends of the Same stick.

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Both Material first, and Metaphysical Awareness first ideas seem to oppose One another. What is strange about these two ideas is that, despite their seeming opposition, they can seem to imply the Same thing:

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Despite All seeming ‘separateness,’ despite All seeming duality and multiplicity, Everything and Everyone is inseparably unified and One as the Whole expansive Allness of All That There Is.

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Cool!

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So not only am I One with All that there was, is, and could Be, but so are ‘you!’ And We share Our Nondual Us-ness. 

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We are One!

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I Am both a seemingly ‘separate’ Self, called ‘Adam Maxwell,’ in this seemingly ‘separate’ form, 

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AND,

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I Am the All-Self which is All That There Is! All-Self is All! ‘you,’ ‘me,’ ‘it,’ ‘they,’ Us, We, All!

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In these ideas, Our ‘separateness’ is imagined, and Our ‘separate’ small selves, ‘i,’ ‘me,’ ‘you,’ are mere humble expressions of the immense All inclusive Nondual All-Self which is All! 

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Neat!

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So ‘my’ seemingly ‘separate’ Self is, in a sense, like a puppet on the hand of the All-Self, and Everything ‘i’ Am, feel, think, and do is really the All-Self Being, feeling, thinking, and doing as and through ‘me.’

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In this idea, Nondualism is Our common Being, and duality is a seeming figment of imagination!

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Woah!

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In the common essence of Being, ‘Nondualism,’ I Am All-Self imagining mySelf to Be a humble ‘separate’ Self, called ‘Adam Maxwell,’ ‘i,’ ‘me’ of ‘the world.’

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In the common essence of Being, ‘Nondualism,’ ‘you’ are All-Self imagining yourSelf to Be a humble ‘separate’ Self, called ‘[insert your name here],’ ‘you’ of ‘the world.’

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This idea is weird Because in Our Oneness, Our seeming individual ‘separateness’ can Be seen as a perceptual illusion. 

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When the unreality of ‘separateness’ falls away, We are left with Our One True Absolute reality of Us-ness, of We, of Nondual All-Self!

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This idea gets even weirder because if We are All All-Self, then We are singular, alOne, All One, in Our Us-ness to the point of Zero and Infinity. Numbers, words, language of any kind, syntax, subject and object relationships, and concepts in general just kinda can stop making sense at this level. 

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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We are One. Ok.

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We are essentially Material, or We are essentially Metaphysical Awareness. Or both or neither. 

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Regardless. The essence Truly is that We are One.

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In a way, no One exists but the One Us, We, All-Self. 

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So in a way, Our seemingly ‘separate’ selves are like leaves on a Tree. We may think We are just One seemingly ‘separate’ leaf, surrounded by many ‘other’ seemingly ‘separate’ leaves, but really, All of the seemingly ‘separate’ leaves are One Tree. To think that All of the seemingly ‘separate’ leaves on a Tree are deeply connected feels close, but not quite right. In Truth, All of the seemingly ‘separate’ leaves are not merely connected to One an‘other,’ but they ARE One an‘other.’ 

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‘me,’ ‘i’ am a seemingly ‘separate’ leaf, as are ‘you,’ yet in Our Tree-ness, All-Self-Us-ness, We are One.

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The All-Self is like a Tree, composed of seemingly ‘separate’ branches and leaves. Actually, maybe the All-Self is more like a Forest, composed of many seemingly ‘separate’ trees, composed of many seemingly ‘separate’ branches and leaves.

 

We can scale outwards forever.

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Actually, to Be more precise to the Truth, All-Self is All! Including time and space, the planet, the forest, the trees, the leaves, and Everything else One could ever imagine.

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There are more implications with these ideas too.

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One of the implications of Our Oneness is that, if a seemingly ‘separate’ Self suffers, All-Self suffers. 

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If a seemingly ‘separate’ Self celebrates the joy of Being, All-Self celebrates the joy of Being.

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If One seemingly ‘separate’ leaf is harmed, the Tree as a Whole is harmed, and thus All ‘other’ seemingly ‘separate’ leaves are harmed, and even the forest is harmed, and the ‘world,’ Earth is harmed, and time and space is harmed, and Everything and Everyone Everywhere is harmed, as All of Us is All-Self.

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If One seemingly ‘separate’ leaf is nourished, the Tree as a Whole is nourished, and thus All ‘other’ seemingly ‘separate’ leaves are nourished, and even the forest is nourished,  and the ‘world,’ Earth is nourished, and time and space is nourished, and Everything and Everyone Everywhere is nourished, as All of Us is All-Self.

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What is seemingly ‘mine’ is also, strangely, ‘yours.’ What is seemingly ‘yours’ is also, strangely, ‘mine.’

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For We, ‘me’ and ‘you,’ seemingly ‘separate’ selves, do not exist independent from One an‘other’ beyond of Our imagined ‘separateness.’ All boundaries are imaginary veils.

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We are One in the Same in and of itSelf All-ness. We are All-Self!

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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If We are All One All-Self, and All That There Is is shared, then… Our suffering is Our suffering. 

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If We are All One All-Self, and All That There Is is shared, then… Our joyous celebratory Being is Our joyous celebratory Being. 

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Our everything is Our everything.

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This idea can Be a little bit horrifying and beautiful.

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For there is much joyous celebratory Being, and much suffering.

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We share a kind of terrible beauty that Nondualism, All-Self, is.

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The implications here are that, when ‘i’ nourish and care kindly for your seemingly ‘separate’ Self, I Am nourishing and caring kindly for All-Self. 

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When ‘i’ nourish and care kindly for my seemingly ‘separate’ Self, I Am nourishing and caring kindly for All-Self.

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Anything We do and are and feel and think, is mutual in Our All-Self-ness.

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‘i’, seemingly ‘separate’ Self ‘Adam Maxwell,’ feel an immediate sense of empathy and purpose in Our Heart towards All-Being All-Self.

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This purposeful empathy is birthed of Nondual responsibility.

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A Selfish Selflessness to Alleviate Our suffering, and to celebrate Our joy, love, compassion, bliss… for All of  Us, All-Self!

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In this, nourishment and caring kindness to ‘others’ is Self care, and Self care is nourishment and kindness to All ‘others.’ 

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This is a Weird way of thinking within some cultures… but it is ancient and pervasive!

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From every time period, and from every culture, these ideas form in One Way or an‘other.’ 

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These are not seeming ‘separate’ Self, ‘Adam Maxwell’s’ ideas, they are ‘yours’ and ‘mine’...they are Ours. 

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Many have proclaimed, from various perspectives, that these ideas are the Nature of All-Self.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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We are One.

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All that seemingly ‘separate’ selves are, and do, are actually the All-Self Being and doing through the channel/medium of seemingly ‘separate’ selves.

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The Tree, expressing itSelf as leaves, leaves.

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All-Self, expressing itSelf as people, peoples.

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We, seemingly ‘separate’ leaves, are of the Tree, of the Great Mother, of the One, of All-Self.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. I Am. I Am a seemingly ‘separate’ Self called ‘Adam Maxwell,’ a channel/medium of the All-Self, as are ‘you.’

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This channel, ‘Adam Maxwell’ through the ways of the All-Self, loves Yoga and Art.

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Yoga is not merely a practice of funny stretches.

Yoga is a word which literally means ‘Union.’ 

Yoga is a way of living a lifestyle which is centralized on the Awareness of Nondualism and All-Self.

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Yoga is a means of Self reflecting, Self processing, Self soothing, Self regulating, Self destructing, Self constructing, Self healing, Self communicating, Self expressing, Self exploring, Self imagining, Self creating, Self celebrating, Self accepting, Self appreciating, Self caring, Self loving, Self Being.

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Art and Yoga can be thought of as Synonymous words.

If One chooses such a view.

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Art is a means of Self reflecting, Self processing, Self soothing, Self regulating, Self destructing, Self constructing, Self healing, Self communicating, Self expressing, Self exploring, Self imagining, Self creating, Self celebrating, Self accepting, Self appreciating, Self caring, Self loving, Self Being.

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Art and Yoga can be All-Self nourishment and caring kindness.

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‘i’, ‘Adam Maxwell’ live my life for, with, as, through, by, Our seemingly ‘separate’ selves / channels / mediums.

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‘i,’ ‘Adam Maxwell’ live my life for, with, as, through, by, Our  Nondual All-Self.

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Us and We.

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Yoga and Art in and of themSelves can alleviate Our suffering.

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Yoga and Art in and of themSelves can celebrate the joys of Our Being.

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For ‘me’

For ‘you’

For ‘us’

For ‘my’ seemingly ‘separate’ Self / channel / medium.

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For All ‘other’ seemingly ‘separate’ selves / channels / mediums.

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For Our seemingly ‘separate world’ / channel / medium.

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For the Tree in and of itSelf. For All-Self. 

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Not only for, but with. With All-Self.

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Nourishment and caring kindness Matters above All.

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There are as many roads to existing as One nourishing caring kind Awareness for All Being as there are forms. For All-Self.

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Let’s pause for a moment and see from a fresh angle.

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Hi. ‘i’ Am seemingly ‘separate’ leaf, ‘Adam Maxwell,’ and I live my life to nourish and care kindly for All of Our Tree-ness. I live to  Self reflect, Self process, Self sooth, Self regulate, Self destruct, Self construct, Self heal, Self communicate, Self express, Self explore, Self imagine, Self create, Self celebrate, Self accept, Self appreciate, Self care, Self love, Self Be, with ‘my’ Self and ‘others.’ 

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With ‘my’ CommUnity. For ‘my’ CommUnity.

 

For We are All of One emminatingly vast Way of All-Self-ness.

 

We are All of One Tree-ing Eternal Us-ness Now and All Ways.

 

Being.